Was looking at the likes on my doa page when I realised someone liked this post I made in "What is the meaning behind your DOA username" discussion thread.

My reply back in Jun19, 2015:

I used 1675alf back when I was on livejournal for other stuff. Doa was probably when I started using cian as a username. Cian was the name of the doll sculpt I wanted then (Luts cian, haha. He doesn't fit my aesthetics now though, which is somewhat sad) and also the hero of a novel I was reading at the time I signed up. So I thought, why not? I go by cian, or cian1675 if cian isn't available. Unfortunately this name gets mispronouced a lot. >_< The common mispronunciation is see-urn, which sounds like "sian" which means bored in Singlish (the slang we use in Singapore), so that's a bit unfortunate. Haha.

I totally don't use my lj anymore. Think I really only signed up because sd_sg, a Singapore BJD livejournal group was the place to go for BJD stuff in Singapore back then? (Along with SGcafe which has also died down, at least for doll stuff).

And I forgot how Luts Cian was my dream sculpt back then. Hahahaha. Well I mean, I do have a Luts Bliss and they have somewhat similar aesthetics but it's still different. I also forgot about the hero of the novel I was reading (I really don't remember what it is I read at that time. Must have been like 7-8 years ago).

As for the pronunciation of Cian... it's Key-urn. Everyone mispronounces it, tbh. But I don't actually use the name in any real life capacity; people just call me by my actual name if I do meet them in person. Or if it's just a meet to sell/buy things kind of meetup, no names are actually spoken during the exchange, so there's that. But yeah, the username keeps getting mispronounced. And at this point I'm cian on so many platforms that I don't even think about WHY I use the name as much as I just do it. Lol. I don't actually want to be called cian outside...my brother's sniggers when he tried calling me cian aside, it's just... not my name? Haha. It's really just a username that stuck because of how much I used it, but it's just that.

This is pretty random, I guess, but I just felt like writing about it. I realise my blogger account is also under cian, which must mean that I actually started using this name since I was like 14? That's 9 years already, wow...

Also I have an issue with thinking up new usernames so even my kpop tumblr blog is cian related (it's stillcian1675.tumblr.com lol). And my ao3 and AFF accounts are cian1675 too. I think if anyone googles cian1675, all my accounts will come up. The weirdest part about all this is that all my accounts are for different things - personal stuff, doll stuff, kpop stuff... but they're all under the same username because I never thought I would/should separate them? Hmm... I'm in too deep to go changing now (Okay, I'm lazy), but yeah.

Anyway, this has been a username version of rambling on "What's in a name?" (I don't remember the rest of the poem except "Would a rose by any other name smell as sweet". Not even sure if the quote is exact but I'm too lazy to google.)

I think I won't be doing faceup commissions for a while after I finish up the ones I already took. I'm starting to get to the point where I'm busy with school and my faceup skill levels aren't good enough for me to charge more, but at the same time I feel like what I'm currently charging isn't enough for the amount of time I spend doing it. Unfortunately, the last commission I have right now, I'm still waiting for the customer to tell me what they want on the faceup... communication is less than satisfactory but I think I just have to hope it goes on eventually, if slowly. To be honest, I just kind of want to finish up that commission so I won't have that on my mind anymore, and then I can temporarily close my faceup services.

My faceup skills have improved a bit while doing commissions, but I still spend more time than I would like doing each faceup. I'm more careful with commissions than I am with my own dolls' faceup, and that translates to drawing lines slower, leaving more time between layers so I know I'm happy with each layer before I move on to the next. I think it'll be nice to go back to just doing faceups without that kind of pressure. My own Unoa Lilin default is still like lying there in my drawer. I did lines already, and I can count the faceup as done if I just seal it and gloss, but I feel like I want to do more when I have time and/or inspiration so I haven't sealed that faceplate yet.

Not really in a doll playing mood recently. I still think they're all cute but I guess I just don't have the energy to pick them up and play for the moment. School and thesis sucks. It's the holidays right now but I'm supposed to still be working on my thesis. :/